Singing Hatsune Miku the k-hole

Neko

evil autism
gamer self diagnosed
sparkle on jerma
fibre optic friday
can you smoke weed in this game
good luck babe
i am at my fucking limit
the internet ruined me
i love toxic  mold
rdr2
i love the lobster
da blinkie??
anime
bad website design
creepy cute
eevee
never trust a republican
full of rage
despite everything it's still you
glaceon
glep
get minecraft
miku mdma
your deranged webmaster
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さくらカレンダー
look at these stamps boy
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flaming text that says guestbook, with link to guestbook
aurora holding a sign for guestbook
Aurora... who?
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Hello! Welcome! This site is in a neverending state of WIP, so excuse the mess.


Aurora.... who? A question both simpler and more complicated than it seems, but ultimately that's me! And also not, Aurora is my OC who is both my persona and not at all. She's her own character with extended lore, but she's also become a symbol for myself. You will see her both as her own character, and as a metaphor for me.


Why the K-hole? Well, in my childhood and in my early adult years, I have tried over a dozen medications for my mental health, mostly SSRIs, SNRIs, and a few meds I should not have been on lol. About a year ago, I was discussing the promising research into positive effects of ketamine on depression , when my partner flatly asked why I don't see if my doctor thought it right for me? I started treatments after my college graduation, and in combination with specialized PTSD therapy (CPT>>>>CBT, don't @ me), my life has drastically changed. Anyway this has been a PSA for medical ketamine.


I still struggle with whatever health issues are plaguing me, but overall, things are much better than they ever have been. This site will be used to document my terrible attempt at a life now that I have one to call my own.

about this site
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made in VSC, best viewed (probably) on firefox, on a 1920 x 1080 monitor. almost definitely not mobile friendly. please see credits for all the various things i stole from people. code is mostly my own (i.e. bad) outside of the lovely glowing pink wrappers, which i lifted from shiny.exe.

this site is fueled by old man yaoi, ketamine, and lots of weed. like a lot of weed.

about me
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a 23y/o autism creature (she/they) with the anxiety of a prey animal being hunted for sport. i graduated last spring with a degree in biological sciences (concentration biomedical), and a minor in Japanese language/culture. my research thus far has been in invertebrate vision. originally i was planning on going back to school after a while, but given that i can likely no longer get funding via the FAFSA (and my health) i will have to put that off for a while.


for the time being, i am a NEET with far too many doctor appointments. i've got some chronic health issues, some known some mysterious, but more or less i've got an auto immune disease and something wrong with my heart. made college a bitch and is making finding a job even harder.


i play marimba, or at least used to, and was very good. i hope to pick it up someday again, along with getting back into piano. that's probably the one thing im good at (marimba), everything else is a wash. enjoy this silly site regardless

my deepest truths :3
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Ice
Ice-types are quiet and introverted, like to go unnoticed, and may appear cold to others, but secretly harbor a lot of passion and creativity.
Like Fyora, you have an Elegant beauty. You're the Faerie Queen and although you understand how important looks can be, you realise you need more skill to rule than just looking pretty! You're a strong person, a natural leader who isn't taken by surprise easily. You're a true queen in both they way you act and look. Some Neopians might call you arrogant, but you're aware that this comes with the task you have to fulfil. What Neopet Are You?
What Neopet Are You?
Hosted By theOtaku.com: Anime Which Minecraft Mob Are You?
Which Minecraft Mob Are You?
Hosted By theOtaku.com: Anime

updates
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4/27/25:Added credits page, updated a couple links.

4/22/25:Adjusted main page a bit. Would like to come back soon, but will likely be a while before next update. Stil desperately want to work on my character and hobby pages :(


3/20/25:Added the cosplay and art pages to the studio main page, along with some poorly organized pictures. I'll be updating both, but I wanted to show that my wonderful moot nicegirlslumber's telepathic inspo worked!!! so thank you to her for that :3. i really want to transition everything over to iframes before i do much else but i'm honestly just so motivation-lacking rn and it's hard. also i'm working on the gaming page rn as well, between my drafts for my other projects

2/26/25:Redid the whole damn site, this time using flexbox much more. The CRT now has a button to disable it as well. I'll be adding all the side pages and filling them out soon, and then it's back to character sheets (after i finish some drafts for my other project lol). probably scrapping most the side pages i was working on except for diary, but we'll see.

2/5/25:Added a framework for a gaming page, using it to teach myself some iframes, now that i understand them a little more i might swap the main pages over. taking a break from the character pages (sobbing) for now, working on the gaming, reading, and celluloid pages. couple other things!

special interest pages started
added some resources to credits page
added some misc graphics here and there.

1/25/25:Completely redid my diary page, breaking away from the theme of the rest of the site. I plan on adding more, but I really loved itinerae's new(ish) vaporeon theme. Plus, little fun fact about me, a lot of my dreams (at least when i used to dream frequently) were fish tank related (also, often in mario 64 environments!). So the aquatic theme is fitting :D. Also, some slight additions around the main page and credits. Still working on character pages


1/10/25: General work on main pages, but sadly little this week for OC pages :
Updated resources page a little
Added some graphics, stamps
Updated about me with some fun stuff

12/28/24:Added webrings, fanlistings, and other misc changes/updates. Will be working on character pages soon! Trying to figure out if the scrollbar on here works, too^^. Also, I plan on redoing some of the side pages hopefully to be more simple, but I'm not really sure. Here is an image to see if the scroll bar works yet^^

12/13/24:Updated interests page, added cosplay page and a cosplay placeholder pic for Anya, and some other minor things.


12/5/24:Added a placeholder site button, and a few more site buttons for others. Working on art for OC pages, and hopefully soon sidebar improvements


11/26/24:Tons of things happening here! Changed the structure of main page to have a wrapper (stolen from here)

Switched display of wrapper to grid, still figuring this one out

Pretty much... everything. Framework for entire page, including OC pages, which will be themed

to-do
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  • add alt text for all images
  • finish OC icons and pages
  • make fanlistings for Gale, Nick, and Lacey?
  • organize resources + credits
  • add art, study stuff
  • add music players
  • make boxes for webrings and stuff expandable?
  • Opal and DE graphics for practice
  • clean up fanlistings
  • add CRT effect
  • mini-blog
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    4/24/25:really need to get this at home, self-employed job up and going. cause the job i applied for, one of the few i could probably do without feeling like shit all the time, is gonna drug test??? bro it's a part time library tech job. tf. anyway and also bc i just want to stop going out. im so tired and scared, and it's getting so hard to bother being around people. the RFK shit in the news has me hating my autistic ass even more, esp since there are people who do not like me bc of aspects of my autism currently making it really hard to participate in the few social spheres i have remaining.
    it's like i just don't want to be a part of society or reality at all, and i guess that's been true my whole life. the former, i guess i wanted to try to be a part of, but it clearly didn't work so here we are. my partner insists im not an unlikable person, rather people find me interesting, but that's part of the problem. im not. people think i can hold a conversation but for some reason i can longer maintain friendships much. maybe bc everyone else gave up on maintaining the ones i had, and i dont care enough to put myself through that. it doesn't matter.

    4/22/25finally tried my hand at animation, for my character Aurora and her toxic dead "gf". find it here.

    3/29/25: Testing this thing out. Will likely format it very differently later. Who knows. Anyway, head full of Leon Kennedy and Amir from Warframe. Send help. Wah. Should check if my comm is done as well. Trying to achievement hunt in RE2 remake. also thinking about working on the time travler rdr2 fic with aurora x arthur. it's very cringe. also i may or may not have bought another copy of the divine comedy for it. so.

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    Giratina

    no ai webring previous next a pink rounded rectangle with soft red borders. in the centre is the text NO AI / WEB / RING and to either side are two hearts, changing colour from white to red to pink

    My TCG partner // Giratina V-Star
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